8.19.2009

stress update

Things are a bit calmer in Chez L-Sock these days. Whew.

  • Dogs. We've met a new dogwalker and house-sitter, someone who answered an earlier Craigslist ad of mine, but who I didn't meet at the time. She seems responsible and reliable, has a lot of experience with dogs, and has references. But then, didn't they all.

    Actually D, the first disappearing dogwalker, didn't give me a reference - she said she was going to, never did, and I neglected to follow up. I've always wondered if that was a mistake, if she ducked the reference because of a habitual disappearing act. I'll never know, but I'll never skip that step again.

    I also emailed with J a bit more. He explained further what happened, and as I suspected, there really is no valid excuse. He does seem sorry, and says he's learned an important lesson, but he'll have to use that knowledge elsewhere.

    Here's a good tidbit. I usually leave J's pay on Sunday, but as I still hadn't heard from him on Sunday morning, naturally this week I did not. I was already at work when he texted me and I learned he'd walk the dogs that day. Now in yesterday's email exchage, J asked if he could expect to be paid for Sunday! Good luck with that, buddy.

    So, having been burned a few times, I'm nervous about this new person. A few good friends have offered to check in on the dogs while we're gone, and I think I'll take someone up on it. Peace of mind on a holiday is a good thing.

  • Flood. Our landlord got back from Germany yesterday, and he's coming by tonight to see the torn-apart basement and talk about the next steps. His response to the flood largely will determine whether or not we stay in this house. If he just installs new panelling and carpet without fixing anything else, I don't know if we can feel safe here anymore. Moving is a horrible thought, but I'm becoming resigned to the possibility.

  • Me. I'm getting nervous about the start of school, and I have to take steps to deal with the anxiety: carving out some quiet time to myself, getting enough exercise, getting enough sleep. And, when necessary, taking drugs!

    I'm not questioning whether I'm doing the right thing, and I'm not worried about being successful. This is a good fit, and I'm sure I'll do fine. My concerns are about time. The juggling factor. How I'll do everything I need to do, not re-aggravate my fibromyalgia, and remain a sane and happy person.

    Also, this is plain old anticipatory nerves. The most difficult part of any new undertaking is usually anticipation. Once you get started, you figure it out. So until I do get started, Klonopin to the rescue!

    We went to the Red Sox-Blue Jays game last night with a few friends from the war resisters campaign. It was great to watch baseball, drink beer, laugh, cheer and generally be out of my own head. The Sox won - although they made it a bit too interesting - and I had a great time.

    The early-morning war resister action planned for this morning was postponed, and tonight I'm giving myself a little gift: skipping our weekly meeting. Taking a mental health day.

    Thank you, my friends, for your support!
  • heroes and vandals, hero's and vandal's work

    From the Daily Mail (UK): Punctuation hero' branded a vandal for painting apostrophes on street signs.

    This man's efforts, while noteworthy, leave the more pressing work untouched: wiping out the unnecessary apostrophes littering our visual landscape.

    Get out there and do your part. Erase an apostrophe today.

    Stamp out apostrophe abuse in our lifetime.

    Thanks to Fred for thinking of me.

    "my conscience was screaming at me not to participate"

    Terrific story on Robin Long from the Boise Weekly.
    Robin Long ran away twice in order to find himself.

    The first time he ran--during his junior year at Timberline High School--Long wandered the United States for more than a year, hitching rides, working odd jobs and eating at soup kitchens.

    The second time he ran, Long took a stand against the Iraq War, shirked U.S. Army orders, fled to Canada and became the first U.S. Iraq War resister deported back to the United States. He ended up in a military lockup in San Diego for a year.

    In Canada, Long found a community of Iraq War resisters and a cause, according to his attorney, James Branum, who represents many Iraq War resisters.

    "He really found his own voice there," Branum said. "He's a lot more confident and assertive and speaking out for what he believes in, more than he was before."

    Long has argued that the U.S. war in Iraq is illegal under international law, that former President George W. Bush deceived the public and the military with false evidence of weapons of mass destruction in Iraq, and that there was no connection between the Sept. 11 attacks and Iraq.

    "When I joined the Army in 2003, I felt honored to be serving my country. I was behind the president. I thought it was an honorable venture to be in Iraq. I was convinced by the lies of the Bush administration just like Congress and a majority of Americans," Long wrote in a Nov. 6, 2008, letter to just-elected President Barack Obama. "But just because I joined the Army doesn't mean I abdicated my ability to evolve intellectually and morally. When I realized the war in Iraq was a mistake, I saw refusing to fight as my only option. My conscience was screaming at me not to participate."

    Long was the first of at least five runaway soldiers who have been deported from Canada. A handful of high-profile cases are still in process in the Canadian immigration courts, and the Canadian Parliament has voted twice to grant Iraq War resisters sanctuary.

    Upon his forced return to the United States, Long was arrested, court martialed, pled guilty to desertion with intent not to return, and received a relatively lengthy 15-month sentence in the naval brig at Miramar in San Diego. He was released last month after serving 12 months of his sentence.

    Long's deportation from Canada and his involvement with anti-war groups has earned him some notoriety as a prominent Iraq War resister. In Canada, he is a poster child in the roiling debate over whether to offer sanctuary to U.S. military deserters.

    More here.

    rally for rodney today!

    Today is Rally For Rodney day! Call, write, email. Make your voice heard.

    The Conservative government continues to ignore the direction of Parliament by deporting Rodney Watson back to the US where he faces punishment for refusing to redeploy to Iraq.

    Rodney, who currently lives in Vancouver, served a year in Iraq. His contract was unilaterally - non-voluntarily - extended for an additional year. He refused a second deployment to Iraq.

    "I realized the war had nothing to do with 9/11 or helping Iraqis or stopping terrorists," said Watson. "It's all about guarding oil for the U.S."

    Canada's Parliament, supported by a majority of Canadians, has repeatedly called on the Harper government to stop the deportations and allow war resisters to stay.

    Today, tell the Government you want these deportations to stop - now.

    Please call or email the Immigration Minister, the Parliamentary Secretaries to the minister, and the Prime Minister.

    Ask them to honour the will of Parliament, and stop the deportation of Rodney Watson and the other war resisters.

    Remind them that 64% of Canadians feel that US war resisters should be allowed to stay.

    Remind them that all three opposition party immigration critics have called on the government to not use the summer recess to disregard the expressed will of Parliament.

    The Hon. Jason Kenney, Minister of Citizenship and Immigration
    Citizenship and Immigration Canada
    Ottawa, Ontario K1A 1L1
    613.954.1064 (Ministry office) or 613.992.2235 (Parliamentary office)
    minister@cic.gc.ca AND kenney.j@parl.gc.ca

    Alice Wong, Parliamentary Secretary to Minister Kenney
    604.775.5790 (riding office) or 1.877.775.5790 (Ottawa office)
    WongA1@parl.gc.ca AND wonga@parl.gc.ca

    Rick Dykstra, Parliamentary Secretary to Minister Kenney
    905.934.6767 (riding office) or 613.992.3352 (Ottawa office)
    dykstr@parl.gc.ca

    The Right Hon. Stephen Harper
    Office of the Prime Minister
    80 Wellington Street
    Ottawa K1A 0A2
    613.992.4211
    pm@pm.gc.ca

    Please cc the opposition party leaders:
    Liberal party leader Michael Ignatieff: ignatm@parl.gc.ca
    Bloc Québécois leader Gilles Duceppe: ducepg@parl.gc.ca
    NDP leader Jack Layton: laytoj@parl.gc.ca

    Let Them Stay!

    8.18.2009

    important: court date and vigil for dean walcott postponed

    War resister Dean Walcott's court date has been postponed for administrative reasons. That means there's no vigil tomorrow, so don't show up!

    Instead, why not use the time to support Rodney Watson?

    ezra nawi: "i did what my heart told me to do"

    Do you remember Ezra Nawi?

    Nawi is a human rights and peace activist, a Jew, an Mizrahi Israeli, and a very brave man. He tried to stop a military bulldozer from destroying the homes of Palestinians in the South Hebron region. He was arrested, and his arrest sparked protest and sympathies around the world.

    This past Sunday, August 16, Nawi was in court for a sentencing hearing. (We won't know his sentence for another month or so.) Representatives from Jewish Voice for Peace were there, along with a petition signed by more than 20,000 people, calling for justice for Ezra Nawi.

    Before his hearing, Ezra Nawi made this statement through JVP:
    This is not the first time that I stand trial for my beliefs. But it is the first time that they will probably be able to stop me.

    I always knew that many people silently supported me, and that if I ever got into trouble they would stand behind me. This moment has come.

    I have been harassed and targeted throughout the years, because I embody three elements which provoke bigotry in the Israeli society: I am a homosexual, I am a Mizrahi Jew, and I devote all my time to fighting for the human rights of Arab Palestinians.

    I am a simple person. I did what my heart told me to do. Looking back, I know that what my friends and I have done is changing the harsh reality of the occupation in the whole area of south Hebron. I feel that now the Israeli authorities are punishing me on a personal level.

    I would like to believe that my personal adversity will inspire and motivate individuals to actively oppose the occupation.

    More about Ezra Nawi here. Why he was arrested:

    tomorrow, august 19: rally for rodney, vigil for dean

    Tomorrow, Wednesday August 19, is a day to raise our voices in protest and plea: stop the deportation of US war resister Rodney Watson.

    The Conservative government continues to ignore the direction of Parliament by deporting Rodney back to the US where he faces punishment for refusing to redeploy to Iraq.

    Rodney, who currently lives in Vancouver, served a year in Iraq. His contract was unilaterally - non-voluntarily - extended for an additional year. He refused a second deployment to Iraq.

    "I realized the war had nothing to do with 9/11 or helping Iraqis or stopping terrorists," said Watson. "It's all about guarding oil for the U.S."

    Canada's Parliament, supported by a majority of Canadians, has repeatedly called on the Harper government to stop the deportations and allow war resisters to stay.

    The recent Federal Court decision in the case of Iraq war resister Kimberly Rivera reflects the broad consensus in this country opposing the punishment of those who refused to participate in this illegal and immoral war.

    On August 19, let's send a message from all across the country that Canadians want the deportations to stop now. Even if you have written or called before, it is very important that you contact these politicians again.

    Please call or email the Immigration Minister, the Parliamentary Secretaries to the minister, and the Prime Minister.

    Ask them to honour the will of Parliament, and stop the deportation of Rodney Watson and the other war resisters.

    Remind them that 64% of Canadians feel that US war resisters should be allowed to stay.

    Remind them that all three opposition party immigration critics have called on the government to not use the summer recess to disregard the expressed will of Parliament.

    Contact information below. Please mark you calendar or write yourself a note to do this tomorrow.

    * * * *

    Vigil for Dean Walcott

    Toronto-area supporters, tomorrow morning, we will gather outside the federal court to support war resister Dean Walcott. Alyssa Manning will appear on Dean's behalf as he challenges the negative decision in his pre-removal risk assessment and humanitarian and compassionate application. Some details about Dean here.

    Wednesday, August 19, 8:00 a.m.

    Federal Court Building, 180 Queen Street West, Toronto (west of University Ave, Osgoode subway)

    * * * *

    Rally for Rodney contact details

    Please call, email, or write a letter to:

    The Hon. Jason Kenney, Minister of Citizenship and Immigration
    Citizenship and Immigration Canada
    Ottawa, Ontario K1A 1L1
    613.954.1064 (Ministry office) or 613.992.2235 (Parliamentary office)
    minister@cic.gc.ca AND kenney.j@parl.gc.ca

    Alice Wong, Parliamentary Secretary to Minister Kenney
    604.775.5790 (riding office) or 1.877.775.5790 (Ottawa office)
    WongA1@parl.gc.ca AND wonga@parl.gc.ca

    Rick Dykstra, Parliamentary Secretary to Minister Kenney
    905.934.6767 (riding office) or 613.992.3352 (Ottawa office)
    dykstr@parl.gc.ca

    The Right Hon. Stephen Harper
    Office of the Prime Minister
    80 Wellington Street
    Ottawa K1A 0A2
    613.992.4211
    pm@pm.gc.ca

    Please cc the opposition party leaders:
    Liberal party leader Michael Ignatieff: ignatm@parl.gc.ca
    Bloc Québécois leader Gilles Duceppe: ducepg@parl.gc.ca
    NDP leader Jack Layton: laytoj@parl.gc.ca

    Rally in every way you can think of: write letters to your local newspaper, blog, Facebook, Twitter. But most importantly, contact the Government. Tell them to respect democracy and Let Them Stay!

    8.17.2009

    more personal updates, more stress

    On top of everything else, when I got home from work on Saturday night, the house looked strangely untouched. I was all but certain that our dogwalker had not been in to take care of the dogs.

    If true, that meant that Tala had been locked in her crate for 12 hours. Neither dog had been outside, they hadn't been fed, Cody hadn't had her medications. All bad. But Tala being crated for so long is by far the most disturbing part.

    I was shocked. J, our (now former) dogwalker, had always seemed so responsible. He's been taking care of Tala and Cody since January. He stayed at our place on our recent outings to Stratford and Boston, and has been planning to stay here while we're in New Mexico. Leaving the dogs stranded all day seems most unlike him. I was worried, and angry, and also mystified.

    I called J's cell, called his home, emailed, texted. No response.

    Allan and I made arrangements for Sunday, and I started thinking about how I would cover future weekends and our trip - now only two and a half weeks away.

    Kennels are not an option for us. We might reluctantly board the dogs at someone else's home, but that would be a last resort. We much prefer someone staying at our house. And our work schedules depend on reliable weekend dog-care.

    * * * *

    You may recall that this disappearing act has happened to us once before. That time, I didn't know D hadn't been there on Saturday; I knew something was wrong, but didn't know what. It wasn't until I got home from work on Sunday that I realized the dogs had been stranded all weekend. Yet another lesson in trusting my instincts: every time I don't, I regret it. We never heard from D again.

    Since then, we've had a few different dogwalkers, each of whom worked out temporarily, but ultimately didn't continue. Sometimes someone's life and schedule changes, and the weekend job no longer works for them. That's cool.

    But often the dogwalker is a young person who turns out to be too immature to make a serious commitment. It seems like at the beginning, it's fun to have a little job, make a few bucks, and have something new to do. But settling in for the long haul is another story, and they end up quitting on little notice.

    One young man was simply too difficult and annoying to work with, and I had to let him go. A series of friends filled in for three weekends while we looked for someone new. Although this was time-consuming to coordinate, it was also an amazing lesson for me. I have excellent friends here in my new home. I have, in fact, put down a few roots. Plus it yielded another bonus, as we took people to dinner to say thank you.

    It's been suggested that we'd have better luck with professional dogwalkers, rather than with random people looking for extra work. But professional dogwalkers usually don't want to work on weekends. They either charge exorbitant weekend rates, or simply don't take weekend jobs. Also, our few experiences with professional dogwalkers has been frustrating. They had their own pre-set routines and methods that they wanted to fit our dogs into, rather than work with the dogs' individual needs.

    I think finding reliable weekend dog-care is simply an ongoing challenge, similar to finding reliable child-care. I accept that and go with it. But it can be time-consuming, and frustrating.

    * * * *

    So finding J was a great help, and we've been very pleased. He is occasionally offered some well-paid work on a Saturday. On those weekends, his mom fills in. So not only is he reliable and good with the dogs, but he came with his own back-up. The situation needs to be mutually beneficial in order to work, and J said it was working out great.

    Coming home on Saturday and seeing he had not been there, I was floored.

    J did not respond to any of my messages on Saturday night or Sunday morning.

    On Sunday at 1:00 p.m. I received this by text: "Sorry I had to work all day yesterday and left the key with an irresponsible friend who forgot to come. It will never happen again and I feel terrible. Looking forward to relaxing in the yard today with the girls."

    I left the key with an irresponsible friend???

    I assume he meant he left the key with a friend who turned out to be irresponsible. But why is he leaving our key with anyone??

    J's mom is visiting family in Poland (a common summer pastime in Mississauga), so not available for back-up. Had he told us he had other work, we would have found someone to fill in.

    Instead, J gave our house key to someone who we have never met, without even asking us. Someone who has never met the dogs, wouldn't know their routine, and - clearly - doesn't care about dogs anyway.

    I. Was. Livid.

    The word ballistic comes to mind. Steam coming out of my ears.

    After venting to Allan, I fought my impulse to fire J on the spot. He was planning on taking care of the dogs that day, so I might as well let that happen. I hadn't left money for him, so he was doing it at his own expense. Good.

    From the same Craigslist ad that netted J, I also had a response from a woman who sounded like a good fit. I dug up her info, and she is still available, for both weekends and our vacation. She's coming over this afternoon to meet and chat.

    I am very stressed at having to meet and train a new person less than three weeks before we go away. I hate being in this semi-desperate position when trying to find someone. I am very annoyed at J's poor judgement putting me in this position. And frankly, I have enough to do! I don't need this.

    8.16.2009

    where are my manners?

    Welcome home, Suaad Mohamud!

    Public pressure and some good lawyers brought Mr Abdelrazik and Ms Mohamud back to Canada.

    Abdihakim Mohamed still waits. Read about his ordeal and demand the Government intercede.

    And what of Omar Khadr? How long? How long??

    * * * *

    I still haven't thought of an answer to my question.

    aclu video: tortured logic

    From our friends at the ACLU.



    To send the video to US Attorney General Eric Holder, go here.

    Video credits here..

    joe glenton: first british soldier to resist war in afghanistan

    Joe Glenton is the first known British soldier to refuse to fight in Afghanistan. Hear what he has to say.




    Glenton wrote this letter to UK Prime Minister Gordon Brown:
    Dear Prime Minister,

    I am writing to you as a serving soldier in the British army to express my views and concerns on the current conflict in Afghanistan.

    It is my primary concern that the courage and tenacity of my fellow soldiers has become a tool of American foreign policy. I believe this unethical short-changing of such proud men and women has caused immeasurable suffering not only to families of British service personnel who have been killed and injured, but also to the noble people of Afghanistan.

    I have seen qualities in the Afghan people which have also been for so long apparent and admired in the British soldier. Qualities of robustness, humour, utter determination and unwillingness to take a step backwards. However it is these qualities, on both sides, which I fear will continue to cause a state of attrition. These will only lead to more heartbreak within both our societies.

    I am not a general nor am I a politician and I cannot claim any mastery of strategy. However, I am a soldier who has served in Afghanistan, which has given me some small insight.

    I believe that when British military personnel submit themselves to the service of the nation and put their bodies into harms way, the government that sends them into battle is obliged to ensure that the cause is just and right, i.e. for the protection of life and liberty.

    The war in Afghanistan is not reducing the terrorist risk, far from improving Afghan lives it is bringing death and devastation to their country. Britain has no business there.

    I do not believe that our cause in Afghanistan is just or right. I implore you, Sir, to bring our soldiers home.

    Yours sincerely,
    Joe Glenton Lance/Corporal, Royal Logistics Corps

    Courage begets courage. Two weeks after Joe Glenton spoke out, this appeared in The Independent. It's long but well worth your time.
    'There is no refuge, no place to go to deal with your grief'

    In the first ever unauthorised dispatch from an officer on the frontline, one young Captain offers a brutally honest account of life in Afghanistan, revealing the pain of losing comrades, the frustration at the lack of equipment, and the sense that the conflict seems unending and, at times, unwinnable

    The author's name has been withheld


    My motivation is simple. Writing this helps vent off some of the frustration at what is happening out here in Afghanistan to those serving in the British Army, where death and serious injury are sickeningly common occurrences.

    Before coming here, I had done two tours in Iraq which saw fierce fighting against the enemy. But, sometimes out here I feel I might as well be on my first tour, as a novice second lieutenant instead of a so-called senior captain with over eight years experience in the Army, due to a shocking rate of attrition that I have never encountered before.

    Commentators keep citing previous figures for casualty rates in the Falkland's conflict, as well as the years in Northern Ireland, suggesting that, spread over the time we have been in Afghanistan, the figures here are not that bad.

    How reassuring. For a moment I thought the rates might be quite bad; but thank goodness I have been shown that what we are experiencing is in fact a tolerable "medium" number of casualties.

    Can we really only analyse the death and injury rate, or view it as a cause for concern, once we get past a certain benchmark or once the average number outstrips a previous average? I had hoped that human progression was a bit more advanced than that, and that there might be more to the situation than a comparison of statistics.

    Then there are the injuries. I am talking about limbs removed, double or even triple amputations, on a scale that we've never seen before.

    When you read about a "very seriously injured" casualty, that person's life is never going to be the same, nor is it for the rest of their family, who will be sucked in and forever affected by the aftermath.

    So what effect does this have on us all out in Afghanistan? My experience of this is from the 1st Battalion Welsh Guard's Battle Group, who have endured a significant number of fatalities and seriously injured personnel, including the death of their commanding officer.

    With each death I think each of us experiences a feeling of total shock, powerlessness and impotence. Within your mind you feel you have to do something, especially if you knew the individual. Back at home that might be to jump in the car and drive to some secluded spot where you can get out and scream at the top of your lungs to let out all the anguish. But here nothing of the sort is possible. You are all enclosed within your camp or patrol base; there is no refuge, no private corner to go to, to deal with your grief.

    Around you everything else has to continue, and cannot stop. The radios still have to be manned and answered, the patrols still have to be planned, the convoys have to be organised. It is not as if you can take a day off to deal with the grief, to come to terms with it. And even if you could, what good would that do?

    Who wants to go and sit in their tent, sweating in temperatures in the high 40s, brooding on the possibilities: what were they thinking in those last few moments, did they know what had happened, did they know they were dying, how terrified and alone did they feel?

    The only option available is to embrace the alternative: keep joking with your friends, maintain the banter levels, swapping smutty jokes and stories – literally forcing yourself to keep smiling.

    I do not say that as a praiseworthy example of that renowned, age-old, plucky, English stiff upper lip. Far from it – it may be our worst enemy.

    After death, life obviously has to go on, but I have always felt that life should go on having learnt a lesson from that death, improving your life as a testament to that life robbed – not merely moving on with a smile, whilst showing "fortitude".

    I am just speaking for those of us who deal with the deaths and injuries in Afghanistan indirectly, as an explosion in the distance, followed by a report on the radio, then a helicopter coming in to pick up the casualty.

    As for those who deal directly with the deaths and injuries, who have to go into the Viking vehicles after the explosion to pull out the casualties, who have to tourniquet the remaining stumps after both the legs of a person have been blown off, those who have to pick up the leftover pulpy fragments of a disintegrated body and put them into a bag, I am not sure how they react.

    I would imagine in a similar way to the rest of us: you put it aside as soon as you can, as there is nothing to be achieved in thinking about it. All you will do is think yourself into a corner, where you are faced with the absurdity and horrid waste of it all. And if you let that take a hold, how are you meant to perform, drag yourself out of your tent at 4am after just three hours sleep, to go on another foot patrol, another 18-hour convoy, another 12-hour shift in the operations room? It does not work.

    There is so much that still needs to be done, there are still weeks to get through, more patrols and convoys that need to be completed. So the event of each death is placed away, zipped up in a mental body bag, back in the recesses of your mind.

    However, unlike a real body bag, which fortunately disappears, that mental body bag remains in the morgue of your sub-conscious, quite possibly to come out and be re-opened, once you return home and have the chance to think about each death, each injury, each friend gone.

    Then there are the equipment shortages. Due to the pitiful numbers of support helicopters and Apaches needed to escort them, every day troops on the ground are forced to expend an enormous amount of hours and manpower just standing still. They sacrifice their reserves of energy, motivation and willpower securing and picketing routes for the never-ending vehicle convoys that have to keep happening in order to resupply the patchy spread of patrol bases with water, ammo and rations; as well as recovering the vehicles that invariably go into ditches and securing helicopter landing-sites for the evacuation of casualties from improvised explosive device strikes.

    I think if Sisyphus (the Greek mythological character cursed to roll a huge boulder repeatedly up a hill, only to watch it roll back down again, throughout eternity) could see us now, he would offer his sincere condolences and offer a friendly arm around the shoulder, saying that he knew what it felt like.

    If someone provided one of those garishly coloured (army) pie charts depicting the percentage of time and effort sucked up into the black hole of orchestrating these road moves, it would provide a statistic that would be both shocking and embarrassing. It might also partly explain why the military is struggling to gain an advantage over the Taliban and cannot hold a significant amount of ground. Its energy, time and focus is bound up with those road moves, and our most vital asset, our troops, are either sweating on the sides of the roads, securing them, or sweating inside the vehicles of those often doomed convoys. I am not criticising the military on the ground, who have to deal with this dilemma. Everyone seems to already agree on this issue of the equipment, in particular the lack of support helicopters – which rather begs the question of how on earth is nothing done about it? And how does the fact that nothing gets done about it seem to be the status quo and keeps occurring year after year, budgetary policy after budgetary policy, operational tour after operational tour? If a magic genie were to appear in front of my eyes, who in keeping with the spirit of the present credit crunch cutbacks, could afford to grant me just one wish, I think I would simply choose a massive increase in helicopters and pilots – a wish that would have such a crucial influence on what is happening to the British Army out here.

    We are dealing here with a tenacious and stubborn enemy. Despite our dropping bombs on compounds that the enemy is using as firing-points, the very next day, new enemy fighters are back.

    On the one hand, perhaps the enemy command is so feared, authoritative and manipulative that they force unwilling fighters into those compounds as pure cannon fodder. On the other, perhaps, the fighters willingly go back, despite their comrades having been killed there, so strong is their faith in an afterlife, or so strong is their belief in the jihad they are fighting.

    Whatever the reason, they come back undaunted to the same firing-points, despite our overwhelming fire power. Their numbers seem to stay constant, as opposed to decreasing – all of which gives a strong indication that we will not be able to reduce their numbers to a level where they are tactically defeated.

    It seems increasingly true that a stable Afghanistan will only be possible with some sort of agreement, involvement or power-sharing deal with the Taliban.

    However, as the British Army units here are increasingly sucked into the turmoil of the latest "fighting season" there seems little evidence that anything is happening on the political and diplomatic stage. In the meantime, tour follows tour, during which the most intense fighting appears to achieve not much more than extremely effectively inflicting casualties on both sides, whilst Afghanistan remains the sick man of Central Asia.

    I think of a scene near the end of Pat Barker's novel The Ghost Road, set at the end of the First World War, in which a seriously injured soldier lies in hospital, gradually dying. The soldier regains consciousness but due to his injuries can only slur a sentence together, which he keeps repeating. His family agonisingly try to decipher what he might be saying, which sounds like "shotvarfet, shotvarfet". His doctor realises what he is trying to say and translates: "He's saying, 'It's not worth it'."

    The man's father, a retired Army major, in grief blurts out: "Oh, it is worth it, it is."

    This incredibly powerful passage goes some way to articulating our response to this conflict. We seem to know and say that it is not worth it, whilst instinctively reacting and saying that it is worth it – it has to be worth it. If I am honest, I do not know what I think about it all conclusively; my reasoning is lost in the storm of media, opinions, analysis that are at play here.

    However, I know that no matter how hard I try to see through the clutter of opinions and utter something of my own in order to explain or justify what I'm involved in, I just cannot shake off that nagging, repetitive voice in my head that says "shotvarfet, shotvarfet".

    I so appreciate that reference to Pat Barker's brilliant novel, which affected me so profoundly. Many thanks to Mara for sending.

    Lots of good stuff here: Stop The War Coalition (UK). More on how you can support Joe Glenton here.

    follow-up: macleans readers prove me right

    In late July, I posted an old essay of mine about choosing to be childfree. This was occasioned by a Maclean's cover story about, as the writer called us, "a tiny but growing minority challenging the final frontier of reproductive freedom: the right to say no to children without being labelled social misfits or selfish for something they don't want."

    The main point of my post was how intolerant our society remains of a choice that hurts no one, and in fact strengthens society. Our planet is over-populated, and unwanted children do not make happy and productive citizens. (Note that I said unwanted, not unplanned. There's a universe of difference.)

    Maclean's has run a follow-up, not on the story itself but on the incredibly harsh reaction it garnered from readers. Usual warnings about comments apply - double.
    We knew "The Case Against Having Kids," the August 3 cover story, would elicit response and debate. But we weren't prepared for the deluge — well over a hundred letters and more than 1,000 comments on Macleans.ca (at last count). Clearly, the subject struck a nerve — and as one email indicates, even a gastrointestinal tract or two: "Disgusted," was its subject line. "It made me nauseous to read the article…in fact, I'm not even sure what was the point of the article aside from promoting yet another fad and the ultimate age of selfishness." [L note: this person is calling my own most personal reproductive decision "a fad"!]

    So to recap the point of the article: to examine the small but growing strata of people who are choosing not to have children. . . .

    The topic is so new in mainstream discussion that many readers assumed it has to be anti-child—reading "The Case Against Kids," rather than "The Case Against Having Kids." One inflamed letter writer even suggested it's not safe to send trick-or-treating children to my house on Halloween (It is! Honest!). A pregnant woman expressed her displeasure, concerned the article could affect her domestic harmony: "But I have got to say that I, being a mom-to-be for the first time, due in 5 weeks did NOT appreciate my husband being welcomed home after a hard day at work to this headline." Some readers complained the story was one-sided: "I presume you're going to give equal space to "The Case For Having Kids," a reader fumed, as if civilization itself didn't provide that. [L note: "Why isn't there a heterosexual pride day?" "Why isn't there a men's history month?" Look around you!]

    Most of the mail came from parents, which isn't surprising: despite declining fertility rates in Western society most people do have and continue to have children. Many wrote to testify that being a parent is the most wonderful and gratifying experience life has to offer — the corollary being that those who opt out are deficient somehow. Chris Boyd, who writes that he has one young child after years of thinking children weren't for him, summed up the sentiment: "I now feel genuinely sorry for those who focus on their selfish existence too long and end up lonely and bored and childless," he wrote, adding: "Oh, and number two is due in December, I guess our lives are over based on 40 Good Reasons to Not Have Children. Really, I could give you 100 reasons you should."

    Ironically, such judgment is at the very core of the stigma felt by those who are childless by choice: The fact they don't want what so many people desperately want, that they're opting out of an experience frequently described as life's most profound, makes them suspect; they're viewed as social outliers or "selfish."

    One email referred to people without kids as "living a 'lifestyle' of barren self-gratification." Yet that wasn't my observation researching the story. Many people who choose not to have children had given thoughtful, careful (sometimes anguished) consideration to the decision. They were acutely aware that parenting is an experiment, one they cannot control, and they weren't willing to take the risk for varied reasons. Others just knew intuitively from a young age that they weren't cut out for parenting. As one woman told me: "I don't think I could be the kind of mother my children would deserve."

    There's a reflexive assumption, it seems, that people don't have kids because they want more stuff — bigger plasma TVs, holidays, a SubZero fridge. Reader Melanie Wallace echoed another viewpoint, one voiced by childless people I spoke with: that she believes she can make a greater social contribution if she didn't have children. "I, too, do not feel the 'calling' to parenthood, and very much appreciated your efforts to help your readers understand that those of us who choose to remain child-free are not narcissistic ego-maniacs," she wrote. "On the contrary, we are often giving back to the world as much as any traditional parent. Through choosing not to parent biological children, I have found that I have the time, energy and resources to "nurture" the world and the people already in it in new and creative ways."

    Some expressed gratitude that Maclean's was addressing the topic and hoped that it would foster greater understanding — and result in less pressure being placed on those who don't want children to have them. One woman wrote: "Many people seem to think that they are entitled to give me their two-cents worth on my decision not to bear children. I hope this article enlightens the public as to how rude, inconsiderate and ignorant their comments are."

    (The tone of some of the mail suggested they weren't imagining the censure: "Bravo to those brave child-free couples," one reader wrote. "If they fail to see how their genetic seed could possibly enrich this world, I for one, do not want their progeny either. Perhaps they should go one step further and voluntarily sterilize themselves, lest they change their minds once that biological clock starts ticking.")

    A few parents even shared what they feel unable to say publicly: that had they to do it again, they wouldn't. One woman wrote: "Parenting is full of worry, upset and grief. A lot of doors close when you have a child. Yes, the good tends to outweigh the bad. I love my kids and would give my life to protect them, but if I could turn back the clock and go back? I'd have chosen to be child-free. I glad to know after reading your article I'm not the only one."

    An educator wrote in to voice her support. "As a society, we should applaud these people," she wrote. "Too often, over my 20 years as a teacher, I have taught children who are 'raised' by parents who obviously regret having had kids. Those are the parents who have no patience or time to spend with their children. They are the ones who resent their kids, let the teachers do the raising, and then blame us when their children are a disappointment to them."

    Story here. Thanks to James for alerting me.

    update on flood, cody and everything else (now with more update!)

    This is one of those personal-life updates that either makes or bogs down this blog, depending on your point of view.

    There's far too much going on around here. The trick to staying sane is for me to leave as much blank space on the calendar as I can, so I get enough rest (a must for my health) and stay focused. The flood temporarily wrecked those plans, but things are quietly moving again.

  • Flood update. A few days ago, a work crew ripped out the basement carpet, along with the lower panelling, drywall and insulation. They left behind six industrial dehumidifiers, which are left on continuously for many days.

    We've seen the same company's trucks and dumpsters at all our neighbours homes, along with piles of ruined carpet and old furniture at the curb.

    So right now we're in a lull between the craziness of the flood itself, rescuing and moving all our stuff, and either moving things back - or moving, altogether. Next week our landlord will be back from Europe, a contractor will assess why the flood occurred, and we'll be able to think about the next steps.

  • Cody update. At the moment we're having a few days without thunderstorms, so she can finally relax. But this summer, especially the last few weeks, has been really hard on our poor girl. While we were reeling from the flood damage and the ensuing work, Cody was either in a state of terror, or drugged. It wasn't easy.

    We have some medication for her, and it works to a limited extent, but her fears are increasing and we need other solutions. Thanks to Dharma Seeker, we are going to try DAP, or Dog Appeasing Pheromone. Like everything else, both natural and pharmaceutical, it works on some dogs and not others. But there's no downside, so we'll give it a go. Best case, we can wean Cody off the other drugs. Worst case, we move on. Unfortunately, it will be three or four weeks before we know.

    Our vet also suggested a consultation with a behaviourist, which I think is a great idea. Once you've tried the standard treatments without success, you're in for a long process of trial and error, which is very hard on everyone - Cody, us, and our bank account. The behaviourist has experience with all the outliers and hard cases, so he'll have a lot more ideas, he'll be up on the latest studies, and he'll know what's safe for an older dog.

  • Tala and me. Strangely, summers are usually the time of year I get the least amount of exercise. The Y where I swim all year has a popular summer day camp, so from Canada Day to Labour Day the pool is packed with screaming children. Two lanes are left open for lap swimming, but they're very crowded. Noise plus crowds are not my idea of de-stressing. Instead, I've been waking up very early and going for long walks with Tala.

    Allan did this over the winter, when the dog parks were frozen over and Tala wasn't getting enough exercise. The entire time they were gone, Cody would stand at the window and cry and howl! I tried to distract her with treats or play, but she would have none of it.

    So now I take both dogs for a short walk around the block, drop Cody off at home, then continue on with Tala. Cody enjoys her gentle walk fix, Tala and I have warmed up a little, and everyone is happy.

    In addition to exercise for both of us, this is a great training opportunity for Tala. She still has issues walking on the leash - she'll freak out at passing cars if she's not reminded to do otherwise. If we don't keep up with her training, the whole thing will unravel.

    And this routine has another hidden value: we're broke, and freezing my gym membership for a few months has been a way to cut back. When it gets too cold to walk, I'll go back to the pool.

  • Just me. I've started physiotherapy (that's Canadian for physical therapy) for some repetitive stress pain.

    As is always the case with these things, I waited until I was in dire pain for a long time before I went to the doctor. My family doctor did X-rays and various tests, but missed the crucial connection between overuse - thanks to layoffs and increased workload on my weekend job - and this strange pain. My massage therapist, who has been keeping me functioning, called it right away.

    It's not a typical repetitive-stress injury, so to my mind, the doctor's omission was not a big deal. When I went back to the doctor with the massage therapist's idea, she completely accepted it, and recommended physio.

    Once I had the doctor's diagnosis in writing, I spoke to my employer about being excused from one particular aspect of my job - the first time I've ever done that for a health issue. They were fine with it. (They're a law firm, they have to be.)

    For now it's not a problem. Whether or not it will become a problem in the future, I don't know. I have the top experience and skills in the department, and I'm hoping that balances things out.

    This week I had the physio consult, I learned that the problem is more extensive than I thought. It makes sense: various recurrent issues through my shoulder, neck, clavicle and upper back are all connected. The therapist said it's fairly extensive, although not as bad as it could be. I have a lot of work to do.

  • Pre-trip and pre-school. I'm simultaneously getting ready for a trip and for the start of graduate school. Classes start while we're gone, so I need to have everything sorted out before we leave.

    This is the last of this year's four mini-vacations: I visited friends and family in California, then Allan and I had Stratford and Boston, and now we're attending a nephew's wedding in Santa Fe, New Mexico. The trip is eight days, but that includes a full day of travel in each direction, and three days of wedding and family functions. That leaves three days to explore a bit of New Mexico.

    When I first learned we were going to Santa Fe for the wedding, I thought we'd make a Big Trip out of it, spend two or three weeks in New Mexico and Arizona. But it's really not possible this year, or in the foreseeable future. (That realization figured into my decision to make the career change.) This trip is a compromise between going only for the wedding and what I really wanted to do.

    I've been to Arizona and Utah a few times, but a long time ago, on family vacations as a child. Allan's never been to the Southwest US at all. So I'm sure the three days will be a great experience. Plus I am really looking forward to spending time with my family. Did I really say that? Life is different now, thanks to permanent deletion of a few toxic family members. Family gatherings can be anxiety-free. Imagine that!

  • The Red Sox. I guess this isn't really personal, but it sure feels that way. I'm trying to wrap my mind around the Red Sox not winning the American League East, but winning the Wild Card.

    In 2007, winning the division was actually more important to me than winning the World Series. We did both! This year my priorities are more sane: I know the most important thing is being in the post-season. But still. Although it's looking highly unlikely that the division is possible, I'll be the last citizen of Red Sox Nation to officially give up on that goal.

  • And now we've lost our dogsitter! Our weekend guy has disappeared, and the trip is less than three weeks away! I don't need this!!!
  • re-run: give me a mouse to vote for

    Bumped up from Friday, August 14

    The Mark is running a series of pieces on the NDP, in advance and during the party's convention in Halifax. I was pleased to be invited to contribute. This is running today at The Mark.

    * * * *

    I Want To Vote For A Mouse

    When I immigrated to Canada from the United States in 2005, one of the things I most looked forward to was a new political system. Tighter controls on campaign financing, a fair election system overseen by an independent agency, and, most of all, more than two major political parties. I told friends in amazement, “There’s a political party in Canada that represents my interests – and they actually hold seats and have influence in Parliament!”

    That party was the New Democrats. Now, on the eve of the party’s convention, I hope it still is – but I’m really not sure.

    I count on the NDP to support peace, to work for a green economy, and to represent the working class. Coming out of their 2009 convention in Halifax, will Jack Layton’s NDP do any of those things?

    What I’d Like To See

    Peace. In 2006, the peace movement was a welcome and active participant at the New Democrats’ convention. The NDP emerged from that convention calling for a full, immediate, and safe withdrawal of Canadian troops from Afghanistan.

    Now Jack Layton is saying Canada should have a role in Afghanistan beyond the planned 2011 withdrawal date and the anti-war movement is finding a chilly reception.

    Faced with Stephen Harper’s plan to spend $480 billion on the military over 20 years, the NDP should be asking why Canada supposedly has no money for a comprehensive childcare plan, for pharmacare, for implementing the Kelowna accord, for investing in infrastructure and green jobs. Jack Layton should be calling for the de-militarization of the federal budget. Instead, in Halifax, he’ll be spending a night on a warship.

    Labour. During the recent fractious strike by public workers in Toronto, most of the media, public, and area politicians were united in anti-worker rhetoric, much of it gratuitously harsh. I waited to hear a response from the federal NDP – but they were completely silent.

    One could argue that a garbage strike is outside the purview of a federal party. But a municipal strike in Canada’s largest city during the worst economic crisis in a generation is a bellwether – an issue for all municipal governments, unions, and working people. Doesn’t the federal NDP have an opinion on that? I understand it’s a highly-charged, controversial issue with delicate political implications. But if the NDP won’t speak out in defence of workers, who will?

    EI. The NDP should have been out front on the fight to fix Employment Insurance. They should have put forth a bold plan that would include contract workers, part-time workers, and the self-employed, with benefits that begin immediately and offer adequate support. Obviously the entire package wouldn’t have been adopted, but you can’t get what you don’t propose.

    The global recession is a gift of opportunity for the NDP. A Prime Minister whose first reaction was denial and a spelunking Opposition Leader are the wrapping and the bow. But Jack Layton’s NDP ceded the issue to the Liberals.

    Forget the Swing Vote

    In the U.S., when the Republicans took a sharp right turn under Ronald Reagan in 1980, the Democrats began their ill-fated strategy of chasing the supposedly centrist voter. As the political landscape moved steadily rightward, so did the Democrats. The Republican Party became dominated by the radical right, the Democrats became moderate Republicans, and “liberal” became a dirty word. The Democrats didn’t have to court liberal voters, because those voters had nowhere else to go – they would always “hold their nose and vote Democrat,” as the saying goes.

    In Canada, it could be – should be – different. With a viable progressive party, if the Liberal Party wants progressive votes, they have to earn them. Instead, we see the Liberals chasing conservative swing voters, and the NDP seemingly chasing liberals. Where does that leave the working class?

    Give Me a Mouse to Vote For

    I urge the NDP to stay true to its roots. The party may never form a federal government, but there are other ways to influence policy. Offering a bold vision of a better way, the New Democrats can be an essential part of the dialogue, potentially changing the terms of the debate.

    I urge the New Democrats not to waste time on foolish trivia such as their proposed name change, a pathetic attempt at mimicking the current ascendant party in the U.S. That party did everything wrong for decades. Barack Obama might be a rock star, but the Democrats are not the party – and the U.S. is not the country – we should seek to imitate.

    I urge the NDP: be yourself. Be strong, be left, be the party of the working class. While the other federal parties represent business interests and the middle class, the NDP should be a voice for working people.

    To paraphrase the great Tommy Douglas: I don’t want to vote for the other cats. I want to vote for a mouse. Give me a mouse to vote for.

    * * * *

    Non-Canadian readers, in case you are mystified - wtf mouse? - you might want to see watch this (fictional re-recreation from CBC drama) or read this.

    8.15.2009

    "the brutal truth about america’s healthcare"

    redsock guest post

    It's no surprise that this story was published in media outside the US. From The Independent (UK), my emphasis:
    They came in their thousands, queuing through the night to secure one of the coveted wristbands offering entry into a strange parallel universe where medical care is a free and basic right and not an expensive luxury. Some of these Americans had walked miles simply to have their blood pressure checked, some had slept in their cars in the hope of getting an eye-test or a mammogram, others had brought their children for immunisations that could end up saving their life.

    In the week that Britain's National Health Service was held aloft by Republicans as an "evil and Orwellian" example of everything that is wrong with free healthcare, these extraordinary scenes in Inglewood, California yesterday provided a sobering reminder of exactly why President Barack Obama is trying to reform the US system.

    The LA Forum, the arena that once hosted sell-out Madonna concerts, has been transformed – for eight days only – into a vast field hospital. In America, the offer of free healthcare is so rare, that news of the magical medical kingdom spread rapidly and long lines of prospective patients snaked around the venue for the chance of getting everyday treatments that many British people take for granted.

    In the first two days, more than 1,500 men, women and children received free treatments worth $503,000 (£304,000). Thirty dentists pulled 471 teeth; 320 people were given standard issue spectacles; 80 had mammograms; dozens more had acupuncture, or saw kidney specialists. By the time the makeshift medical centre leaves town on Tuesday, staff expect to have dispensed $2m worth of treatments to 10,000 patients. ...

    Christine Smith arrived at 3am in the hope of seeing a dentist for the first time since she turned 18. That was almost eight years ago. Her need is obvious and pressing: 17 of her teeth are rotten; some have large visible holes in them. She is living in constant pain and has been unable to eat solid food for several years.

    "I had a gastric bypass in 2002, but it went wrong, and stomach acid began rotting my teeth. I've had several jobs since, but none with medical insurance, so I've not been able to see a dentist to get it fixed," she told The Independent. "I've not been able to chew food for as long as I can remember. I've been living on soup, and noodles, and blending meals in a food mixer. I'm in constant pain. Normally, it would cost $5,000 to fix it. So if I have to wait a week to get treated for free, I'll do it. This will change my life."

    Along the hall, Liz Cruise was one of scores of people waiting for a free eye exam. She works for a major supermarket chain but can't afford the $200 a month that would be deducted from her salary for insurance. "It's a simple choice: pay my rent, or pay my healthcare. What am I supposed to do?" she asked. "I'm one of the working poor: people who do work but can't afford healthcare and are ineligible for any free healthcare or assistance. I can't remember the last time I saw a doctor."

    Although the Americans spend more on medicine than any nation on earth, there are an estimated 50 million with no health insurance at all. Many of those who have jobs can't afford coverage, and even those with standard policies often find it doesn't cover commonplace procedures. ...

    Many insane people in the United States (and not all of them are on the far right, by the way) are hellbent on attacking any proposed improvement to the US system, hoping to scare people into believing (among other things) there will soon be "death panels" which will pass judgment on who lives and who dies.

    As the main story was from a UK paper, I was reminded of the recent claim by Investor's Business Daily that
    if Stephen Hawking was British, he'd be dead. ... People such as scientist Stephen Hawking wouldn't have a chance in the UK, where the National Health Service would say the life of this brilliant man, because of his physical handicaps, is essentially worthless.

    The esteemed Dr Hawking was quick to point out:
    I wouldn't be here today if it were not for the NHS. I have received a large amount of high-quality treatment without which I would not have survived.

    8.14.2009

    give me a mouse to vote for

    The Mark is running a series of pieces on the NDP, in advance and during the party's convention in Halifax. I was pleased to be invited to contribute. This is running today at The Mark.

    * * * *

    I Want To Vote For A Mouse

    When I immigrated to Canada from the United States in 2005, one of the things I most looked forward to was a new political system. Tighter controls on campaign financing, a fair election system overseen by an independent agency, and, most of all, more than two major political parties. I told friends in amazement, “There’s a political party in Canada that represents my interests – and they actually hold seats and have influence in Parliament!”

    That party was the New Democrats. Now, on the eve of the party’s convention, I hope it still is – but I’m really not sure.

    I count on the NDP to support peace, to work for a green economy, and to represent the working class. Coming out of their 2009 convention in Halifax, will Jack Layton’s NDP do any of those things?

    What I’d Like To See

    Peace. In 2006, the peace movement was a welcome and active participant at the New Democrats’ convention. The NDP emerged from that convention calling for a full, immediate, and safe withdrawal of Canadian troops from Afghanistan.

    Now Jack Layton is saying Canada should have a role in Afghanistan beyond the planned 2011 withdrawal date and the anti-war movement is finding a chilly reception.

    Faced with Stephen Harper’s plan to spend $480 billion on the military over 20 years, the NDP should be asking why Canada supposedly has no money for a comprehensive childcare plan, for pharmacare, for implementing the Kelowna accord, for investing in infrastructure and green jobs. Jack Layton should be calling for the de-militarization of the federal budget. Instead, in Halifax, he’ll be spending a night on a warship.

    Labour. During the recent fractious strike by public workers in Toronto, most of the media, public, and area politicians were united in anti-worker rhetoric, much of it gratuitously harsh. I waited to hear a response from the federal NDP – but they were completely silent.

    One could argue that a garbage strike is outside the purview of a federal party. But a municipal strike in Canada’s largest city during the worst economic crisis in a generation is a bellwether – an issue for all municipal governments, unions, and working people. Doesn’t the federal NDP have an opinion on that? I understand it’s a highly-charged, controversial issue with delicate political implications. But if the NDP won’t speak out in defence of workers, who will?

    EI. The NDP should have been out front on the fight to fix Employment Insurance. They should have put forth a bold plan that would include contract workers, part-time workers, and the self-employed, with benefits that begin immediately and offer adequate support. Obviously the entire package wouldn’t have been adopted, but you can’t get what you don’t propose.

    The global recession is a gift of opportunity for the NDP. A Prime Minister whose first reaction was denial and a spelunking Opposition Leader are the wrapping and the bow. But Jack Layton’s NDP ceded the issue to the Liberals.

    Forget the Swing Vote

    In the U.S., when the Republicans took a sharp right turn under Ronald Reagan in 1980, the Democrats began their ill-fated strategy of chasing the supposedly centrist voter. As the political landscape moved steadily rightward, so did the Democrats. The Republican Party became dominated by the radical right, the Democrats became moderate Republicans, and “liberal” became a dirty word. The Democrats didn’t have to court liberal voters, because those voters had nowhere else to go – they would always “hold their nose and vote Democrat,” as the saying goes.

    In Canada, it could be – should be – different. With a viable progressive party, if the Liberal Party wants progressive votes, they have to earn them. Instead, we see the Liberals chasing conservative swing voters, and the NDP seemingly chasing liberals. Where does that leave the working class?

    Give Me a Mouse to Vote For

    I urge the NDP to stay true to its roots. The party may never form a federal government, but there are other ways to influence policy. Offering a bold vision of a better way, the New Democrats can be an essential part of the dialogue, potentially changing the terms of the debate.

    I urge the New Democrats not to waste time on foolish trivia such as their proposed name change, a pathetic attempt at mimicking the current ascendant party in the U.S. That party did everything wrong for decades. Barack Obama might be a rock star, but the Democrats are not the party – and the U.S. is not the country – we should seek to imitate.

    I urge the NDP: be yourself. Be strong, be left, be the party of the working class. While the other federal parties represent business interests and the middle class, the NDP should be a voice for working people.

    To paraphrase the great Tommy Douglas: I don’t want to vote for the other cats. I want to vote for a mouse. Give me a mouse to vote for.

    * * * *

    Non-Canadian readers, in case you are mystified - wtf mouse? - you might want to see watch this (fictional re-recreation from CBC drama) or read this.

    8.13.2009

    les paul, 1915 - 2009

    We lost a giant of music today. The incomparable Les Paul died today at age 94.

    To me Les Paul was not just an innovator and a great musician; he was a fixture in the New York City music scene throughout my life there. In the early 1980s, Paul started a weekly gig at the club Fat Tuesday's. He played there until the club closed in the mid-90s, then moved his weekly residence to another club, Iridium. He only stopped playing there a few months ago.

    New York Times obituary by the man I used to call my second-favourite* music writer, Jon Pareles. Worth a read.




    * Allan was writing about music at the time.

    "failures of justice and humanity at the highest levels of government"

    From the Toronto Star.
    A country that abandons its own

    If Canadian citizen Suaad Hagi Mohamud were wealthy or politically connected or media savvy, she would never have been stripped of her passport and her rights while travelling through Kenya.

    She might have been stopped at the airport in Nairobi. Initially, a Canadian consular official might even have supported her detention. When she presented her identification, the Canadian system would have rallied to her side.

    Suaad Hagi Mohamud, however, is not rich. She's not a political insider. She's not a media darling.

    She is a black Somali immigrant who had to live on charity once Canadian authorities sent her passport to Kenyan police and suggested they prosecute her for not really being one of us. She had produced a half-dozen forms of valid identification, but our bureaucrats closed their ears to her desperate pleas for help.

    By cancelling her passport, they rendered her stateless. And rendered her to the Kenyans – the same Kenyans who had rendered another Canadian citizen, Bashir Makhtal, to an Ethiopian prison.

    The default position of a powerful bureaucracy is control. But when its political protectors are unresponsive to principles or the people, bureaucratic control unconsciously, and without any obvious will, can become sadism.

    Remarkably, the Canadian politician elected by the people to oversee the bureaucracy – and to help fellow Canadians in distress – failed in his highest obligation. Foreign Minister Lawrence Cannon crushed her hope for quick justice with mistruths and irrelevancies. In demeaning and damaging language, he said she hadn't tried hard enough to prove she was a citizen.

    What chance does a poor immigrant woman living on handouts away from her family have against that kind of power?

    Back channels out of Ottawa are now whispering that we don't have the whole story, that things aren't what they seem in this case. But they have yet to come clean. We heard the same thing from back channels in the cases of Donald Marshall and David Milgaard, terrible examples of abuses of citizens by their government.

    But what crime strips a Canadian of all their civil rights and even their human right to their identity?

    None. These are excuses for failures of justice and humanity in our bureaucracy and at the highest levels of our government.

    And as yesterday's Toronto Star pointed out, this is not an isolated incident. What do we learn from an examination of other cases?

    Overwhelmingly, the victims are people of colour, they are immigrants, they are out of the political mainstream. Our government treats them as less than real citizens.

    This incident demonstrates this government's flawed understanding of the true nature of today's Canada, and how through ignorance or malice it is frustrating Canadians' hopes for real justice.

    I still don't have a category for this.

    let them stay: mark your calendars

    Supporters of US war resisters in Canada, and my friends at the CIC, please mark your calendars for two important upcoming dates.

    On Wednesday, August 19, we'll launch Rally For Rodney, a national and international day of action in calling on the Harper Government to stop the deportation of Iraq War veteran Rodney Watson.

    Rodney served a full year in Iraq, and was three months away from the end of his contract, when the military ordered him to deploy to Iraq for a second year. By this time Rodney knew the war in Iraq was based on lies, and was a war of aggression waged against a civilian population. He refused to deploy, coming to Canada instead. He's been living in BC since 2007 and has a Canadian-born son.

    Plan on putting aside a little time for phone calls, letter writing and other activities in support of Rodney.

    Also on Wednesday, August 19, if you're in the Toronto area, you can show support for war resister Dean Walcott by joining our vigil outside the federal court. Details here.

    On Tuesday, September 22, Morgan Phillips will perform his one-man play "Emergency Monologues," as a fundraiser for the War Resisters Support Campaign. Details to follow.

    would you like an $8/hour pay cut? zellers workers say no

    More than 300 warehouse workers at the Zellers Distribution Centre in Scarborough (east Toronto) went on strike after their employer handed them a list of take-it-or-leave-it demands and refused to negotiate with their union.

    The company's demands included an $8-an-hour wage cut, the increased use of temporary workers, the elimination of severance pay, undermining seniority rights, and several other concessions. Zellers, as Canadians know, is owned by Hudson's Bay Company, which is now owned by US private equity firm NRDC Equity Partners. HBC walked away from the bargaining table on July 14. The workers walked off their jobs two days later.

    The striking workers' spokesperson at Canadian Auto Workers Local 1000 said: "Retail workers in this country have suffered from low wages and poor workplace standards for too many years. Our members are taking a stand to maintain the standard of living we have worked so hard to win over the years on behalf of all workers in this sector. And we're not going to back down until the company agrees to bargain with us."

    There has been solidarity demonstrations at the company's Brampton warehouse and during the grand opening of a new Zellers Superstore in Toronto.

    Please take a moment to join the CAW's online letter-writing campaign. Tell Zellers CEO Mark Foote that you find the company's demands unacceptable, that the company should continue to negotiate in good faith - and that you won't shop at any of the HBC stores - The Bay, Zellers, Home Outfitters, Fields - until they reach an equitable settlement with their warehouse workers.

    Go here to show your support.