4.05.2014

whither wmtc (updated)

I feel so disconnected from this blog, and from writing in general. I hate it.

I love having this blog. I love that when I do want to write, and have the energy to do so, and have something to say, I have a place to do it. But writing occupies such a small space in my life now. 

I'm finding tremendous satisfaction from my job. Meaningful work from which I can actually earn a living! What a concept. I've also gotten very active in my union. The need to protect good jobs and the public sector has never been greater, so the timing is perfect, and I feel I have a lot to contribute.

When I'm not working and not engaged in union activities, I'm re-charging. That means movies or baseball, sometimes reading, and trying to get some exercise. I've been very pleasantly surprised at my energy level. I'm very conscious of managing my fibromyalgia, but that's second-nature to me now. I know when to say no, or to cancel plans if I have to. If I do feel a little fibro-ish, it never lasts too long or becomes too severe.

All good. 

But writing! Where is writing? I knew it was coming. I knew it was inevitable. But it makes me too sad to think of this part of myself shrinking and disappearing.

Update. Did it sound like I was pulling the plug on wmtc? Not a chance. Just musing... and wishing I could live in a few alternate realities at the same time. Perhaps you can relate.

9 comments:

karen said...

For absolutely selfish reasons, I am sad that your desire to write is disappearing; I enjoy your blog and your writing. However, it sounds as if your life is really satisfying right now, and it's pretty hard to feel hard done by in that case!

West End Bob said...

Go with what your heart tells you, laura k . . . .

laura k said...

Thanks for that, you guys. :)

I guess I need to clarify. I'm not considering ending this blog. Not by a long shot. If I didn't have a place to write when I want/need/have time to, I'd have to create one.

I'm writing much less frequently, and a good portion of posts are library-related. But wmtc isn't going anywhere.

johngoldfine said...

Library is good! Of course, I'm also always up for a books/dogs/mags/vimy ridge update.

deang said...

I agree with Karen. I am really glad you're life is so much better now, and glad you're spending time on union issues. If I did Facebook, I'd keep up with you that way, but since I don't, good to know you're doing well. I do miss your writing, but there'll be more at some point.

opit said...

Good to hear. Since being 'disappeared' a number of times online I know how hard it is to grow contacts - even with good sharing and an open mind.
But a blog is more relevant and better when keeping it it is a relief and not a chore.

laura k said...

Nice. Thank you, all. :>)

Amy said...

Like John, I love all the library stuff. It's not surprising that that is what you find you want to write about---it is what you are doing with most of your time and also something you enjoy. What could be better!

I am sure your readers will be interested in whatever you write, whenever you feel like writing. I know I will be.

laura k said...

Thanks, Amy. This blog has always reflected what was going on in my life and the focus of my politics, so yes, in that sense all the library posts are completely natural. I guess I'm just surprised that it's also interesting! But I'm glad it is.