back to school tomorrow

Classes start tomorrow and I'm roiling with anxiety. This is not new. This is me on the eve of a new term. It's been building all week - waking me up earlier and earlier, until I finally got the point and took some anti-anxiety meds before bed - and today my stomach is one giant knot. If patterns hold, tomorrow I will be completely fine. On my way to school, I'll feel a bit happy and excited to be on my way to ticking off two more courses. And that will be that, at least for a while.

There's no rational reason for this anxiety. But there's no avoiding it, either. I'm glad I believe in taking medication. I'd hate to go through this without.

I had an excellent winter break. I did everything I had planned: lots of organizing and household chores that had piled up, some socializing with good friends (and dogs), lots of time lying on the couch reading. (Look for an upcoming "what i'm reading" post.) Cooked a few nice dinners, took long walks with Tala. Did not commute into Toronto, not even once, and did no paid work whatsoever.

Allan and I watched a few movies, but mostly we binged on "The Larry Sanders Show," watching several episodes a night while drinking wine and eating yummy things from President's Choice. I can confirm that Larry Sanders is the best television show ever.

When I finish this term, I will be halfway done with grad school.


Stephanie said...

Hope you find your courses to be interesting and enlightening.

laura k said...

Thank you! That would be a bonus. :)

Anonymous said...

With you in spirit, today was my first day of school in six years. Not grad school, however, I know how you feel.

laura k said...

CHL, that's great, congrats! And good luck.

When I started school in Sept 09, it was my first day in a classroom in 28 years!! Yikes!!

I'm happy for you. Make sure you keep us updated on FB.

hhw said...

What classes are you taking? My term starts next week (Geographies of Inequality & Exclusion; official start of thesis research (eep)). I have mixed feelings about being a student yet again, but being in school is what lets me live in Canada, so I'm glad for that.

I hope your term goes well.

tim said...

YAY! And when you're 50% done grad school, we'll be 1/7th of the way through baseball season! woop, woop!

(yes, I did do the math on that - 1/7th, dammit!)

Go get 'em, L!