11.02.2010

personal update of the crappy variety

I am having the worst fibromyalgia flare-up I've had since starting school - the worst since several years before moving to Canada. Without going into symptomatic detail, I'll give you the short version: I feel like crap.

I would normally spend the duration on the couch, watching a movie. I've learned through experience - perhaps the only way anyone really learns anything - that there's no point in trying to push through it.

But right now, waiting it out is not an option. I have two papers to write. My crappy job gives me very little paid time off and it's all used up, and taking unpaid time off is impossible.

So I've stripped everything down to the essentials, I'm economizing my energies as much as I can, and I'm forcing myself to do the school work.

In times of stress, I am comforted by reflecting on the many positives in my life. I don't appreciate when others remind me of them, but I do feel better from taking stock of my many . . . privileges, gifts, strengths, whatever you choose to call them.

My condition is generally very manageable. School is going well, and usually I'm able to do the work with much less effort than many of my classmates. Most importantly, I have tremendous support from my partner and from amazing friends. That's making a huge difference. So thanks in advance for your share of that.

16 comments:

Jere said...

Hey I've got a pic I was gonna send you anyway (hopefully tonight), but now it will serve as an attempt to cheer you up. I hope you'll get a kick out of it.

deang said...

I do hope you feel better. I knew nothing about fibromyalgia until a friend of a friend told me she hadn't worked for years because of chronic fibromyalgia. She had had a high-paying computer job before and her disability income remained relatively high because of that, but she was still in frequent pain and worry. It was an eye-opener to me.

MSEH said...

I'll be thinking of you. I know you'll do what you need to do while also doing what you can to take care of yourself. Be well!

L-girl said...

Thank you(s). :)

I think fibro appears to be more common now because it's finally been recognized and doctors know how to diagnose it. Previously it was often misdiagnosed. I was misdiagnosed for 7 years, which is quite common.

But I also wonder if the condition is ctually more prevalent now - not only more frequently diagnosed, but really more cases - because of our environmental toxins. It's one of the theories.

johngoldfine said...

I hope you feel much better very soon--Allan says the 2011 season is already under way, so there's just one more positive I will resist reminding you of.

L-girl said...

Well, for me it starts on Opening Day. Not even Spring Training! I need a nice long break between seasons.

But thanks for not reminding me. ;)

impudent strumpet said...

Here, have some cuteness!

John F said...

A friend of mine suffers from fibromyalgia, among other things. Her flareups are definitely Not Cool.

School is going well, and usually I'm able to do the work with much less effort than many of my classmates.

Ah, the advantage of being a mature student! I went back to school for a community college diploma in my late 20s, several years after doing a B.A. Would it be immodest to say that I kicked ass?

redsock said...

Beyond Cute: *

redsock said...

OMG

(check out #19, too)

and 14

and 21

and 23

and 26

and 31

and 46

etc.

L-girl said...

Imp Strump, thank you! OMG baby animals OMG.

Redsock, you found my all-time favourite Daily Puppy. I imagine that what's Buster would have looked like if he had a happy puppyhood.

John F, you're so right. When I started school I thought my age was a liability (and it is, in terms of my energy and busy schedule), but now I also see how it is a a very significant asset.

Mike said...

Sorry to hear that L-girl I hope you're feeling better soon. I remember this article coming up last December and thought I'd pass it on, it looks like they may be zeroing in on a cause for fribromyalgia.

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/173355.php

L-girl said...

Thanks Mike :)

L-girl said...

That looks really interesting. As soon as I see "sensory experience," I know they're at least looking in the right direction.

Mike said...

A little belated welcome to citizenship from Bowser and Blue.

We're All Here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UiSv26OFQl4

L-girl said...

Hey, thanks for that. Back when we were immigrating, people used to post Bowser & Blue all the time, along with Arrogant Worms and a few others. I haven't seen any in a long time. Thanks :)