5.15.2007

working without a net

Well, I just did something foolish, although not rash. After much thought and much conversation with my partner, I have quit my job at Crappy Firm, without another position lined up.

I kind of can't believe it myself.

I'll get other work. We'll make it work.

I hope that's true.

All day today, I thought, how can I quit a job that pays decently, that many people would be thrilled to have, when there are so many people toiling in horrible, low-paying jobs, or suffering under truly awful conditions, or unemployed?

Then I would think, if I stay in this job and continue to be miserable, will that help those people?

There's a slight possibility that Crappy Firm will want to negotiate in order to keep me. If they do, I will try. But I'm (obviously) not counting on that. They seem pretty rigid. So far their answer to everything has been, "This is Firm policy."

Well, well, well. Here's an adventure.

16 comments:

mkk said...

Wow. That's brave, but I really believe that this will work out for you. Good luck! Sending you good vibes from across the miles.

M@ said...

Good for you for making such a brave, bold move! I bet it'll work out just fine. You will get better work, and you will be far better off with this job off your mind.

Fingers crossed!

L-girl said...

Thanks for your confidence in me! I really appreciate it.

Brave, eh? I guess bravery is one kind of foolishness. Maybe every brave act is a foolish act that worked out well.

Anyway, thanks for the good vibes. :)

M. Yass said...

You did the right thing to save your sanity. Staying in a shitty job just because you need a paycheck is nothing more than letting the bastards win. You will probably find out that this firm is poorly regarded and has high turnover when you get a new, better job.

loneprimate said...

I did something just like this... ten years ago last month, matter of fact. I had a sort of bird in the hand, going back to an on-again, off-again job I'd had before. Unfortunately for me, that died on the vine before I'd had a chance to find the Next Steady Thing (a company I had set my sights on strung me along all summer and then stopped taking my calls). It led to a bleak year for me, but I came out the other side with renewed purpose and a better sense of myself, and a job that springboarded into a career. I don't imagine you'll take anything like that long to land your next position; after all, you have extraordinary experience. I do mean to say that even in spite of the rough times I had as a result, I was better off for doing it in the long run. The place I was working, while fun on a social level, paid miserably and was ruled by intimidation and harsh example, and ultimately that cost them the loyalty of experienced workers and finally the business. Karma, I think.

Gird your loins, set your mind firmly on "I did the right thing", and get that next job.

David Cho said...

Wow!

I will be pulling for you now that Crappy Firm is behind you.

Jere said...

Peace of mind is the most important thing, I think. Good move.

L-girl said...

Thanks, everybody. I hugely appreciate what you've all written here.

I had a knot in my stomach for three days, as I struggled with this decision. This morning it's finally gone. A great relief!

Miche said...

Good for you, for taking control of your situation!

Nikolas said...

Umm, you immigrated to another country, have moved to two houses, had gains and losses to your family...

a simple thing like finding a job pales in comparison! You'll be fine :-)

L-girl said...

Thank you Miche. :)

Umm, you immigrated to another country,

Ah, Nick. You hit it on the head. That is exactly what gives me the courage - or foolishness - to do this.

When we moved here, neither of us had jobs. Now at least one of us is working. I've got to be able to figure this out.

As we used to say in grade school, Takes one to know one. :)

Woti-woti said...

Good for you! Always better to be decisive than stew incessantly. Plus you have a whole bunch of 'policy' questions to ask prospective employers. Bonne chance!

David Cho said...

You know I was gonna say that it is in general better to look for a job while you have a job because it makes you look more marketable.

But in your situation, it is probably better off without it, and you made the right decision.

You were on the job for only a month or so, so your prospective employers would be asking why you were thinking of leaving so early. Now you don't have to tell them about your employment with Crappy Firm, do you?

Now you can say that your "last firm" folded which is why you are out of a job.

L-girl said...

You know I was gonna say that it is in general better to look for a job while you have a job because it makes you look more marketable.

That's the conventional wisdom, but I don't know if it matters all that much. I think it's something people say, maybe sometimes to rationalize staying put.

You were on the job for only a month or so, so your prospective employers would be asking why you were thinking of leaving so early. Now you don't have to tell them about your employment with Crappy Firm, do you?

Now you can say that your "last firm" folded which is why you are out of a job.


That would be great... if I hadn't already started looking before I quit. I updated my resume to include Crappy Firm and sent it many places.

I was actually only there two weeks. :)

I don't think that will be a big impediment. I have 17 years experience in the field, long-term jobs at top places, and great references. I'm inclined to think that one bad fit won't blow it. We shall see!

Daniel wbc said...

Um, from experience I can say that working at a job that you hate can be bad for your health.

I worked at a job for three years. The last year, I felt like I was walking to the gallows every morning. When I finally got the nerve up to quit, I was so depressed I was out of commission for a while. Would have been better if I had gotten out sooner.

So, good for you. You'll be in my thoughts and I wish you the best. And, from what I know of you, I truly believe it will all work out well.

L-girl said...

Thank you Daniel.

Feeling as if you're walking to the gallows... that dread of going to work is one of the worst feelings in the world.